So its 57 days before I turn 26, still nowhere near where I want to be :( sadly enough those who didnt EVEN want that phase in their life got it unexpectedly... M I jealous? yes I damn am!
2 of my friends just gave birth last October, well they are married and I am damn happy for them but how about the other two thats due in February? One just recently started dating her man then 4 months later boom hello BUN IN THE OVEN!!!! like wow seriously? the other ones story i am not too sure! but still like come on... unexpected things happen to those who doesnt momma hood yet and yet here I am ready and willing and I get the usual answer of "I'm not ready yet, but i want to have kids with you SOMEDAY" yes someday I get the someday answer.
It's upsetting really... I dont know I feel like my clock is ticking and its ticking on its last leg. I dont know... my want for momma hood is just so damn there... everyday it reminds me that its ticking, just waiting... but nothing.
Quarter life crisis again? yeh i think so. but damn it... why cant i have that?
